just to remind myself of what i have long forgotten.
u know, there was this principle that i held fast to,
but as time passes, i tend to forget.
(im a human. a forgetful human. so what do u expect from me? quite an excuse rite?haha)
long time ago, before im here in cfs, i came to realize that nothing in the world is mine.
no idea. heheh.
the feeling was..very great. no words can describe.
but then was the time when we can realize our nature as nobody.
except a slave, and a vicegerent.
let us imagine a theater. the storyline goes like this.
there was a master.
a very rich one. just mention anything, and there's no single thing mentioned that is not his.
in other words, semua dia punya lah!
and he have so many slaves.
and he assigned all of them to a mansion.
and he give them money, a lot of money to develop the mansion, to do anything to the mansion so that it would be a very nice place to live on.
he said to them,
"use the money i give you guys very wisely.
some of you, i didnt give as much as i gave to some other.
so please help them, using your money and everything you have.
remember, what you spend in this mansion will just circulate in this very mansion.
if you give out something, you will surely get it back somehow, some other time.
and i will surely reward those who performs well in this mansion"
but very few of them who understands.
there's this slave, namely Haji Bakhil bin Kedekut.
(he didnt go to makkah on his own expense. he went there on his master's. see? so kedekut kan?)
he was given RM1 million.
and he was so happy to be given such a trust.
but at the time he got that 1 million,
he forgot that that 1 million is not his.
he thought that it was his, (haha. so teruk lah~)
he saw some of his friends starving,
but he restrained himself from giving out his (his master, i mean) that 1 million.
coz he was afraid that that 1 million will get used up.
(well, he really forgets, right? he forgot that the money is not his. and what's worse, he forgot that though he spend his money, he will get back what what he spend. and he will get rewarded for what he spend)
well, all of us agree that that Haji Bakhil bin Kedekut is a so...so...teruk!
but we dont really realize, that we are like him, sometimes. kan?
(taknak mengaku pun takpe. saya jelah yang mengaku :p)
well, let's ponder this ayah.
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now who would like to have a bargain with God?