Tuesday, April 13, 2010

menukar paradigma.

hati, jiwa, akal dan jasmani perlu dididik.

andai gagal dari satu paradigma, perlu dicuba dari paradigma lain.

tapi samakah menukar paradigma dan hijrah?

well, linguistic thingy.
just let it be.

time to get serious.
(but why do my friends laugh when i say i want to get serious?)


Monday, April 12, 2010

why afraid?

Don't be afraid of death,
it will come to you sooner or later.

-Alizaman Gamond-

Monday, April 5, 2010

saat mataku membawa hatiku ke langit.

hari ni hari isnin.
jam lebih kurang 7 pagi.

melihat ke luar tingkap, selepas pulang dari masjid.
(dont ever say i dont go to masjid, okay? haha)

terlihat langit biru yang indah.
lantas satu laci di minda terbuka.

"langit ni,,aku penah tgk dulu.
masa kecik-kecik dulu.

how I miss the time then.
my mother, my father, my sisters, my brother.
do you ever think these people will turn back like how they were then?

and finally, my innoncent self.
kecik-kecik dulu takde dosa.

very innocent.
but now?

God knows.
hutang nikmat pun tak terbayar,
ditambah dengan dosa,

ampunkan aku, Tuhan~

Friday, April 2, 2010

ke mana harta kita?

before i start, i'd be glad to state my objective for this posting is,
just to remind myself of what i have long forgotten.

u know, there was this principle that i held fast to,
but as time passes, i tend to forget.
(im a human. a forgetful human. so what do u expect from me? quite an excuse rite?haha)

long time ago, before im here in cfs, i came to realize that nothing in the world is mine.

no idea. heheh.

the feeling was..very great. no words can describe.
but then was the time when we can realize our nature as nobody.
except a slave, and a vicegerent.

let us imagine a theater. the storyline goes like this.

there was a master.
a very rich one. just mention anything, and there's no single thing mentioned that is not his.
in other words,
semua dia punya lah!

and he have so many slaves.
and he assigned all of them to a mansion.
and he give them money, a lot of money to develop the mansion, to do anything to the mansion so that it would be a very nice place to live on.

he said to them,
"use the money i give you guys very wisely.
some of you, i didnt give as much as i gave to some other.
so please help them, using your money and everything you have.
remember, what you spend in this mansion will just circulate in this very mansion.
if you give out something, you will surely get it back somehow, some other time.
and i will surely reward those who performs well in this mansion"

but very few of them who understands.
there's this slave, namely Haji Bakhil bin Kedekut.
(he didnt go to makkah on his own expense. he went there on his master's. see? so
kedekut kan?)

he was given RM1 million.
and he was so happy to be given such a trust.
but at the time he got that 1 million,
he forgot that that 1 million is not his.
he thought that it was his,
(haha. so
teruk lah~)

he saw some of his friends starving,
but he restrained himself from giving out his
(his master, i mean) that 1 million.
coz he was afraid that that 1 million will get used up.
(well, he really forgets, right? he forgot that the money is not his. and what's worse, he forgot that though he spend his money, he will get back what what he spend. and he will get rewarded for what he spend)

well, all of us agree that that Haji Bakhil bin Kedekut is a so...so...teruk!

but we dont really realize, that we are like him, sometimes. kan?
(taknak mengaku pun takpe. saya jelah yang mengaku :p)

well, let's ponder this

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(At-Taubah 9:111)

now who would like to have a bargain with God?