sajak bertajuk..

aku yang tak masyi

di kala mereka hanyut

hanyut dalam dakapan bayu lembut

bersama belaian mimpi

dalam nikmat lena

aku dibawa memori

kepada kenangan indah yang pernah kukecapi dulu.

ku ingat.

ketika itu segalanya amat indah.

terlalu manis untuk diukir.

saat dihatiku hanya ada dia.

saat itu.

aku tak endahkan masa.

siang malam aku bersamanya.

dan aku tak kisah apa manusia akan kata.

namun kini.

bila di hati hadir yang lain.

tumpuan mula beralih.

kenangan kian kabur.

ingatan kian kusut.

wahai Al-Quran.

tak pernah terlintas utk aku lupakanmu.

terasa ingin ku ulang detik lalu.

menghabiskan sehari suntuk bersamamu.

sungguh cita-cita ini tak pernah luput.

aku ingin setiap bait dirimu hidup dalam ingatan.

mencorakkan fikiran.

menghiasi hati.

menceriakan diri.

andai kau mahu untuk bersamaku.

mencorakkan fikiranku.

menghiasi hatiku.

menceriakan diriku.

nescaya engkau akan sentiasa meniti di bibirku.

p/s: aku nak masyi.

conservation.

Epilogue

this is a dedication to my brother Saiful Alimin and my physics lecturer, Madam Habibah Yusoff.

Physics is a subject i have the least interest in. But i seemed to do better in Physics than the subject I have more interest in ; Biology. Madam Habibah kept repeating during all classes throughout last semester that the law of conservation of energy happens in all situation, all place.

The Law of Conservation of Energy

According to Sir Serway, the law of conservation of energy states that energy cannot be created and cannot be destroyed. However, it can be transformed and transferred.

For instance, the electrical energy that is being supplied to a light bulb will be transformed to heat energy and light energy. And some are also transformed into sound energy in faulty bulbs. The conversions of energy proves that energy is not destroyed. This shows that energy is conserved.

Adaption to real life

In simple situations, it can be easily understood that what we eat will be converted into energy. The more we eat, the more energy we gain, and thus the more work can be done.

But have we ever adapted it into even more complex situation? Like exams, turning the world into a better place to live in? and so on?

Everything is conserved. If you work hard, you will achieve good marks in your exam. All your hard work, your prayer and your good deed will be converted into what you will get in your exam

(Habibah Yusoff, 2010)

I agree so much with the statement.

We will get back exactly the same value as what we have invested in order to achieve our goals.

If we get good results, then there must be something significant during our struggle that awards us with such good result.

If we dont, then dont whine. There must be some flaws here and there during our struggle.

Our struggle maybe regarded as the hardest one can see on earth, but the flaws can simply eradicate the hard work.

It might be our selfishness, our independence to God, our despicable acts. It can be anything.

All CFS IIUM students.

The result will be out next week, insya-Allah. Let us pray the hardest so that we will get what we worked for.

p/s : I want 4.0. Please pray for me. :)

the past, the present and the future.

headnote : maksu, if u ever read this post, im very2 sorry for stealing gambar afiefa n afiefi :D

how far can the present can trigger our mind to look into the future?

how far can the present can stimulate our mind to ponder the past?

how far can the past can be learnt from so that the future is not as bad as the present?

today i babysitted my beautiful adorable cousins. Sharifah Salma 'Afiefa n Sharifah Salma 'Afiefi.

i know u can tell. yes. they are twins.

they are so beautiful that i felt like i just want to eat them up. haha. no im not joking.

i really felt like eating them up. why? dont trust me? see for yourselves.

told u i didnt lie. but 1 thing that came into my mind.

today, these beautiful girls are innocent. no sins. no what. clean and clear.

everybody loves them. they cheer up their parents and everybody that sees them.

and there is a big, big BUT here.

nobody knows what they might turn out into in the future.

i dont want to have any bad imaginations in my mind. so i pray they will turn out into very wise, pious, clever beautiful girls that have a very clear fikrah.

that have a very clear view of their purpose of life. i prayed n am praying and will keep praying.

you too, please pray for them.

that was about the present and the future.

now let us think about ourselves.

at the same date 19 years ago, i was slightly older than these two girls. and im very sure that my parents and uncles and aunties looked after me very well. cared for me very well. loved me with the most intense love one can ever give.

when i cry, they coaxed me.

if im bored from lying down, they pick me up, bring me anywhere safe they can think.

and 19 years later, here i am.

not only i can walk by myself. i can also look after their children.

but what i am really hoping is, they dont feel a waste taking care of me during i was small.

i am really afraid that they would say,

dulu masa kecik2 aku dukung kau. aku jaga kau bagai nak rak. dukung kau sana sini. tapi bila besar, kau jadi macam ni? sia2 aku jaga kau kecik2 dulu.

well i guess you can say what the baby meant in the quoting turned out into.

no. i dont want to mention precisely. let us just have the basic ideas. okay?

basically, the baby do not turn out like what their parents want them or expect them to turn out into. let's just think that way.

i have felt how disappointing it is when a person i cared from he/she was little turns out into somebody that i have never thought of all my life.

i have felt how sad it is when a person i played with since i was little, who exhibited the potential to be quite a figure today, turns out exactly the opposite way he/she was.

but i do not blame them.

there must be flaws here and there. in me who took care of them. who played with them.

in educational system. be it formal or informal. in the social system. everything.

i have experienced the feeling and i know how painful it is. how i cannot find any words to describe the pain. how i feel like even death is not as painful as the disappointment and sadness.

so i really dont want what i experienced today (well, not really today. i mean, in the recent time) to be repeating. be it to me or any other person. be it now or in the future.

if we feel like, there might be anybody who might feel disappointed and sad with what we turned out into, let us correct ourselves. i mean it. OURSELVES.

i mean YOU and ME.

and let us work so that it wont happen ever again in the future.

p/s : im sorry if i have made anybody disappointed or sad. i guess you can tell. i am a bit emotional here. haha